I forgot to say that, at that time my father was the director of the Okayama District Court, and the Otsuka family lived in the city of Okayama, so it wasn't long before the family moved to Tokyo. That is.
It was one day, when I went out to the garden like in peacetime and sat down on the pine roots and was stunned, my father came by my side before I knew it.
"What are you thinking about?
The weather that I was born with is irresistible, but Nofather hates the weather like you, so be a little firmer.
I said with a serious face, so I couldn't even raise my face and kept silent.
Then my dad sat down beside me and
He suddenly hid his voice saying "Oi Shinzo" and said, "Did you ask anyone?
Because I didn't understand anything at all, I was surprised to look up at my father's face, but mysteriously, I cried.
Seeing that, my father's complexion suddenly changed, and he kept his voice hidden.
"It's not enough to mourn, you can say that you heard it when you heard it.
In that case, Nofather has an idea.
Saa, don't be afraid to say it.
Did you hear anything?
The state of my father at this time was so much ｜ It seemed that he was upset.
Then even my voice changed from normal times, and I became pretty, so when I started crying, my father became more and more upset.
『サア言え！ 聞いたら聞たと言え！ 慝すかお前は』と僕の顔を睨みつけましたから、僕も益々｜可怕なり、
"Say! If you heard it, say you heard it! I glared at my face, saying, "Are you mourning?", So I became more and more ｜
I apologized, "Please excuse me, please excuse me."
"Don't say apologize.
If you hear something strange, I think you're stunned, so ask.
If you don't ask anything, that's fine.
Saa honestly! This time, I'm angry with the truth, so I didn't know what I was doing, and I wondered if I had done something very bad.
"Excuse me, excuse me.
『馬鹿！ 大馬鹿者！ 誰が謝罪れと言った。
"fool! A big fool! Who said to apologize.
I became twelve and immediately cried for the habit of a man.
Because I was yelled at, I was surprised and crying while looking at my father's face, and for a while my father was silently looking at my face, but suddenly with tears,
There were few words that gently said, "You can cry, no matter what your father is, you can go back to Saa," but he was full of charity.
After that, my dad didn't say much about me.
But after that, a piece of cloud shadow sank to the bottom of my heart.
It was at this time that the mysterious demon of fate struck his claws into my heart.
I was worried about my father's words and couldn't stand it.
I think this would have been forgotten soon if it was an ordinary boy, but I was so upset about where I would forget, why my dad asked me something like him. When I saw what I did, I thought about it in my boyhood, even if it was so important, and I came to believe that it was about my own life.
I'm still wondering.
I wonder why my father's question came to believe in me.
Those who lived in the dark are the same as seeing things in the dark, and the boy who was placed in the unnatural border was able to recognize the black spots that were always behind the dark and unnatural bottom. I think it will be.
However, it wasn't long before I was able to capture the truth about my sunspots.
Although I was worried, I couldn't ask my father about this, and my mother couldn't give up, so I was sending the days with a little pain.
I was put in a junior high school dormitory at the age of fifteen, but before that, I would like to talk about one thing.
There was a large mulberry field in the mansion next to Otsuka, and next to it was a small wood shingle house, and an elderly couple and a daughter who was about 167 lived there.
Formerly a fine samurai, Souen is said to be the site of the mansion.
This old man was my good friend, but one day he taught me how to play Go.
A couple of days later, when I told my parents about this at night, my father, who doesn't care much about games, scolded me with horns in his eyes, and even my mother stared at my face with a surprised eye. I did.
And it was unusual for my parents to look at each other, so I felt very strange.
I later understood why I had to make Go an enemy, but when I understood that, I was completely overwhelmed by the demon of fate, and I was the first to exhaust my current suffering. I did.